It’s finally Friday and I’m in Idaho getting ready to welcome my baby brother home from his 2 year LDS mission in Africa. His flight doesn’t get in until 5:55 tonight so today I’m keeping myself busy by meeting up with the lovely Britt from My Little Sunshines for lunch. I met her at the PNW Blogger meet up in March, before she moved over here, and just love her to pieces so I was really excited when she was available to do lunch today. It’s been almost exactly a month since my last update so I figured it was time for another one. I’ve been a little nervous to write about all this, but Jessica reminded me that I’ve been really open about everything so far. She’s right so I figured, why the heck not. You can head over to her blog and thank her when you’re done reading this post.
I’m officially in a relationship. As most of you know, I was worried about what people would think. Not about him, but about me starting a new relationship. I guess all the “who cares what people think” that Jessica was saying finally sunk in. I had a few conversations with people that I was most worried about and made the big “in a relationship” status change on Facebook. So here’s what I’ve been nervous to write, or say out loud to people other than my closest group of friends – and the 50+ baseball fans that were standing around Patty and I when we happened to run into Kaylee and I drunk word vomited the whole thing to her.
I am crazy in love with this guy. I want to marry him and have his babies. There, I said it! The girl that was scared to make things official is thinking marriage. In the words of Katie, “man you hoped on that slide and are riding it pretty quick aren’t ya!” I’m sure there are people out there thinking I’ve lost it and maybe they’re right, but here is what I know. He makes me unbelievably happy. I can’t put the way I feel about him into words. As someone who loves to write, you can imagine how frustrating it is to not be able to explain how I’m feeling. No words seem good enough.
We’re still doing the long distance thing. We’re still trying to figure out the logistics of it all, but we’re getting there. It’s not that we’re not rushed to live in the same town, because him having to leave every Monday morning really sucks, but we know that the distance isn’t going to break us and it’s not going to last forever. Yes, there are times when my over-thinking gets the better of me and the idea of getting married again scares the crap out of me. What if it doesn’t work out this time either? Well that’s a risk everyone takes, but I can tell you that this relationship is so different than the relationship I had with my ex-husband. We have talked about things that my ex and I didn’t talk about in our entire eight year relationship. We are both in the same place in our lives and want the same things. No, we’re not perfect and we don’t agree on everything, but what fun would that be. The important thing is that we talk through everything. We listen to each other and respect each others opinions.
For those of you wondering – yes, we’ve talked wedding stuff including when and where. No, he hasn’t officially proposed. Like I told him, I don’t need a ring on my finger right this second. I know how he feels about me and I don’t need a ring to prove it.