Well I’ve officially been divorced for a whole month!
I didn’t even realize it had been a month until about 20 minutes ago.
I sat here for like 5 minutes trying to remember the exact time that my divorce was final. This might not seem like a big deal but it is.
You see… while we were standing there waiting for the judge to sign the papers saying everything was done, I stared at the huge digital clock that was literately counting the seconds. I left that court house knowing the exactly second that my marriage was legally over and I was convinced that it would be burned into my brain forever.
Guess I was wrong.
There are days when I miss him and the friendship that we had, but I’ve come to realize that this divorce was the best thing for both of us. I will always love him and I wouldn’t trade the time I had with him for anything.
I’ve had a number of people tell me that I seem so much happier now. Not happier than I was 5 months ago when I was convinced that my life was going to end right along with my marriage, but happier than I was when we were still together.
Life works in mysterious ways my friend.
You will get knocked down and beat up and wonder how you’re ever going to smile and be happy again.. then one day you’ll look around and realize, “holy shit… that laugh wasn’t forced… I’m actually happy!”